Overkill

Amazing. If you want to know, how the true users of it, the system controllers, justify to steal from you and eventually kill you, quick or slowly, have a look.
The system has failed.
My mask of sanity slipped over many years ago yet I feel more complete.
No new knowledge can be extracted from my words.
This confession has meant nothing.

Early morning

Early morning...

Training...

Thoughts...

Training...

Spectrum of infinite colors...

Night Terrors

I fell asleep around 10 pm.

During my turmoiled sleep I had a strange dream. Very unsettling. I don't know if it's the current situation (the fact that I didn't do the Olympics) but this image right here depicts how I felt when waking up.

Can you imagine waking up like this?

Well I can.

Now I'm still disturbed from that goddamn dream and my sleepyness fucked off.

I need a coffee and..some good news?

Ha, funny one.

One of those days huh?

Yeah. Exactly one of "those" days.

Waking up...looking at the sky...and it's...gloomy.

I'll have breakfast.

Maybe I'll also order a double coffee.

Not sure. 

Anyhow, I'm sweating so I'll take a shower. Or maybe two.

Maybe it's the temperature? or the mood? or the fact that I slept like 'shiet? 

Not sure.

1 minute of sadness

Couldn't sleep.
Tried to lay in bed but nothing.
Then...all of a sudden...the acknowledgment of the fact that I didn't do the Olympics and chose the industry.

It's beautiful to look at things while you keep a tear between your eyelashes...it makes everything look blurry and weird.
And now...I'll try again...to sleep.